/ 1:54 AM

The familiar stab in the heart.
I think...
I kinda miss you.
I don't know if you still read my blog..
but if you're out there...
somewhere...
I'm not trying to hold on to you for old times' sake...
I just want you back in my life.
I've never laughed or smiled in such a long time.
Such happiness only surfaces whenever I'm with someone close to me.
Thinking about those days..
where we would talk into the wee hours of the morning..
mainly about life..
the very best moment.
Now, everything's a fade memory.
The last time we met,
you promised me that we would see the christmas lights.
Regardless,
you said you'll always be there.
I don't know why I'm going hysterical right now..
All I know that..
I really want you back.

Please..

)':

/ 1:09 PM

(T.E.N) things I will accomplished by the end of 2012:

1. How to apply makeup on self
2. Buy new lenses for my canon
3. Get a smaller camera so it's easier to bring it around
4. At least maintain a weight of 52 kg
5. Download Adobe photoshop onto my laptop
6. Maybe, if possible, get a MAC laptop (that's if current malfunctions)
7. Balance boyfriend, friends & family
8. Make sure I exercise regularly
9. Get decent results of B at University
10. Love myself

/ 10:34 PM

Whenever my phone rings, I'll instinctively think that it would be you. Sigh, I wished you wouldn't shut me out of your life. It really hurts to be push away and acknowledging your efforts are going down in vain. There are times where I wonder why I even bother to linger around - hoping that one day, maybe one day, you would mend your selfish ways. Those days seem really far from where I'm currently standing. Because of you, I've given up my life. I've not met my seconday school friend in months or my best friend who's about to leave for the UK soon. It also fucking hurts to feel that you're second option when you've given it your all and I would always place you first, regarding of who's asking me out.

I've tried, I really have. ):

/ 11:21 AM

/ 11:49 PM

I would bluntly wake up every single day with my husband giving a soft peck on my forehead. We'd have breakfast on our dining table and share our plans for the day. We'd get change and leave the house--driving separate cars. We finish work and I'll be at home cooking his favorite dishes before he returns with dessert. Then, as I try make dinner before he returns, he'll surprise me by wrapping his muscular arms around my waist and kiss me on the neck, telling me how much he appreciates me. I'll crack into a smile, knowing my efforts are not wasted in vain. During dinner, he'll complement my cooking--whether he likes/loves it or not and we'll proceed to talking about work. After dinner, we'll take turns to shower. Follow by lying in bed and watching a movie, programme or series. In the end, we'll compromise to watching our favorite drama show and soon, drift off to sleep. He'll have his arms holding me close to his chest, wishing me 'sweet dreams' as I reply a suit. Tomorrow would be another beautiful day.

Soon, there'll be a day where we would try to conceive a child. By then, I would have probably matured into a much wiser adult. Our first child would be a boy, he would have his father's charming personality, smile and face. But, take on most of my looks just cause the chinese believed that good fortune would bestow upon boys that look like their mothers and daughters that look like their fathers. Our second child would also be a boy, he would be a handful and we'll still manage. Our last child would be a girl. She'll be daddy's princess and possibly more spoilt than her brothers. Our children would have many suitors because they'll be equally well-mannered, humble and good looking in their own way.

Life would be blissful then. (:

/ 11:38 AM

I suck at making things better.

Yesterday made me realised how easy it was to lose someone you loved to something as trival as a joke. It was also possibly my fault for not opening up that I was affected by his crude remarks. Sigh, either way, I'm still nursing a broken heart from yesterday's event. I can't decide if it's the things he say or how the whole scenerio turned out to be, that's more heart breaking. Seems like a bit of both. Just a bit...

/ 11:47 PM

Yes and yes.

I am living life and I'm happy. I couldn't ask god for a better way to breathe. Everything that could possibly perfect my life has been spoon-fed and I, with all my heart intend to keep it this way. I won't let some silly arguement that stirred between Mom and I, trampled my day.

I totally encourage you to read this—although I know that most people wont. It’s full of nonsense and whatnot but who’s judging? ♥ Theresa B. Is the name. Spelled Theresa not Teresa...cause then it sounds like tree-sa. I’m currently residenting in Australia, down under but Singapore will always be home no matter what—nothing beats Asian Cruisine!(: Believe it or not, I have natural brown hair, eyes and rosy cheeks. Dying my hair is a no-no! Saggittarius's are optimistic, fun-loving, jovial, good humor, honest, straightforward, intellectual & philosophical creatures—that's ME! My birthday falls on the 2nd of Dec 93 I get along with almost everyone, I don’t like drama—drama finds me, I love chewing my nails when nobody’s looking, I laugh at my own jokes—better get used to it, I love my friends—they are the b-e-s-t, Sluts can go to hell,



I’m a people pleaser at heart—so be nice, I make my own rules—I don’t live my life as others tell me, I do what I want, I love my family, I am not afraid to be with my parents in public, I get selective with books—magazines don’t count, I’m a nature person at heart, Tomboys are my posse, I forgive people wayyy too easily, I like to be the center of attention, Red & Blue aren’t just UK colours—they are my fave, I like to laugh, I’m afraid of the dark, I love myself—and you should too, I don’t do drugs or smoke—they are gay, People generally think I’m weird—they are right, I wish to go on an adventure someday, I love to watch cartoons, I am very random, I love to paint my nails, Glitter-face tells you what I’m attracted to, I daze off a lot, I can keep promises—scout’s honor, I love to receive smses but hate to respond**



I love hugs—they make my day, Lying isn’t an obsession—I just don’t want to hurt you, I am a tree hugger, I don’t curse—unless I’m in a really bad mood, I like to kid around with serious people—it’s fun, Conjuring nicknames for people I love is an everyday thing, I’m still a kid at heart, Taunting my pets is heaven, I love karaok-ing with friends—it gets addictive, I'm not afraid of to take shots of anything I find memorable, Hate is a very powerful word, I love long memorable walks ♥, I would like to find the end of the rainbow someday, I'm not afraid to admit that I'm quiet around people I'm not comfortable with, I don't need to prove to you that I'm a true friend—it's obvious, I respect people's privacy—you should too, Weird people are unique—not ‘weirdos’, I love to doodle when I get bored, I am one of a kind &&& WELCOME TO MY BLOG!

/ 1:54 AM

The familiar stab in the heart.
I think...
I kinda miss you.
I don't know if you still read my blog..
but if you're out there...
somewhere...
I'm not trying to hold on to you for old times' sake...
I just want you back in my life.
I've never laughed or smiled in such a long time.
Such happiness only surfaces whenever I'm with someone close to me.
Thinking about those days..
where we would talk into the wee hours of the morning..
mainly about life..
the very best moment.
Now, everything's a fade memory.
The last time we met,
you promised me that we would see the christmas lights.
Regardless,
you said you'll always be there.
I don't know why I'm going hysterical right now..
All I know that..
I really want you back.

Please..

)':

/ 1:09 PM

(T.E.N) things I will accomplished by the end of 2012:

1. How to apply makeup on self
2. Buy new lenses for my canon
3. Get a smaller camera so it's easier to bring it around
4. At least maintain a weight of 52 kg
5. Download Adobe photoshop onto my laptop
6. Maybe, if possible, get a MAC laptop (that's if current malfunctions)
7. Balance boyfriend, friends & family
8. Make sure I exercise regularly
9. Get decent results of B at University
10. Love myself

/ 10:34 PM

Whenever my phone rings, I'll instinctively think that it would be you. Sigh, I wished you wouldn't shut me out of your life. It really hurts to be push away and acknowledging your efforts are going down in vain. There are times where I wonder why I even bother to linger around - hoping that one day, maybe one day, you would mend your selfish ways. Those days seem really far from where I'm currently standing. Because of you, I've given up my life. I've not met my seconday school friend in months or my best friend who's about to leave for the UK soon. It also fucking hurts to feel that you're second option when you've given it your all and I would always place you first, regarding of who's asking me out.

I've tried, I really have. ):

/ 11:21 AM

/ 11:49 PM

I would bluntly wake up every single day with my husband giving a soft peck on my forehead. We'd have breakfast on our dining table and share our plans for the day. We'd get change and leave the house--driving separate cars. We finish work and I'll be at home cooking his favorite dishes before he returns with dessert. Then, as I try make dinner before he returns, he'll surprise me by wrapping his muscular arms around my waist and kiss me on the neck, telling me how much he appreciates me. I'll crack into a smile, knowing my efforts are not wasted in vain. During dinner, he'll complement my cooking--whether he likes/loves it or not and we'll proceed to talking about work. After dinner, we'll take turns to shower. Follow by lying in bed and watching a movie, programme or series. In the end, we'll compromise to watching our favorite drama show and soon, drift off to sleep. He'll have his arms holding me close to his chest, wishing me 'sweet dreams' as I reply a suit. Tomorrow would be another beautiful day.

Soon, there'll be a day where we would try to conceive a child. By then, I would have probably matured into a much wiser adult. Our first child would be a boy, he would have his father's charming personality, smile and face. But, take on most of my looks just cause the chinese believed that good fortune would bestow upon boys that look like their mothers and daughters that look like their fathers. Our second child would also be a boy, he would be a handful and we'll still manage. Our last child would be a girl. She'll be daddy's princess and possibly more spoilt than her brothers. Our children would have many suitors because they'll be equally well-mannered, humble and good looking in their own way.

Life would be blissful then. (:

/ 11:38 AM

I suck at making things better.

Yesterday made me realised how easy it was to lose someone you loved to something as trival as a joke. It was also possibly my fault for not opening up that I was affected by his crude remarks. Sigh, either way, I'm still nursing a broken heart from yesterday's event. I can't decide if it's the things he say or how the whole scenerio turned out to be, that's more heart breaking. Seems like a bit of both. Just a bit...

/ 11:47 PM

Yes and yes.

I am living life and I'm happy. I couldn't ask god for a better way to breathe. Everything that could possibly perfect my life has been spoon-fed and I, with all my heart intend to keep it this way. I won't let some silly arguement that stirred between Mom and I, trampled my day.